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Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Words

A comment I made today is coming back to haunt me.

Can you relate? I'm pretty sure everyone over the age of three has said something they wished easily retractable.

But words aren't.

Especially when God gets a hold of them.

The comment I made was to my husband who was trying patiently and with little success to encourage me out of a dark place.

I said to him, "If I'm writing out of pure obedience, then the results of my work are in His hands. Not mine."

Hopefully you weren't thinking I was going to type out some nasty phrase uttered in anger. I've said those too. But I'm learning to clamp my mouth shut quicker because I've seen the physical pain of angry words.

The quote above was said from my head and it's haunting me because I know the words are true. But my heart and body are still trying hard to "do my part" and make things happen.

And I'm weary.

Weary of Amazon rankings (mine stink). Weary of all the lists and measurements and of working for things that God keeps making clear are out of my control.

So I'm pulling back and asking the Lord to speak to my heart and make the above words ones of faith. Resting faith. The kind that trusts God with the outcome and chooses joyful obedience.

Not white-knuckled working hard to give my all and hope for the best.

I'm actually reading two books right now that are just like our loving Daddy to have dropped into my hands at this exact time because they're both perfect encouragement for where I am.

One is The Restorer by Sharon Hinck. Excellent book. I'm learning from Susan just how big God is and that it's okay to be where I am as long as I don't let the lies keep me from holding on to Jesus.

The other book is Facing Your Giants by Max Lucado. Another great read that God is using to remind me of simple truth that I've too easily forgotten.

So what is God using to speak to your heart right now? What words or books are seeping into your heart and helping you walk this sometimes difficult path?

I wish I had some great word of encouragement to share with you all. Maybe knowing you're not alone in the tough places is enough.

Pray for me, will you? I'd appreciate it so much!

6 comments:

Laurel Wreath said...

You got it girl, you might like the quote I have on my last post on my blog... anyways I am praying.

The Lord has me working my way through Joshua, really studying it and even though I have read the story many times the Lord is teaching me many things. And sometimes teaching is not alway easy to swallow, but always good in the end.

Blessings.

Heather said...

Amy,
No words of wisdom, just a sympathetic hug from other believers going through rough patches right now.

God did remind us today that he cares about the small stuff. A stranger (we had met her at church that morning) paid our lunch tab today without us knowing it...

Be strong and courageous, do not be terrified...for the LORD your God is with you.

Deena said...

Father, it is so hard to work in the writing and publishing industry. It can be so much about stats and ratings, when it needs to be about Your heart. God, honor Amy's desire to be Your voice in today's world. Her writing gift is from You, and You chose her to spread Your Word through that gift.
Give her favor among readers and publishers alike. Help her to be noticed in this mass of novels and books...not for her glory, but for Your glory.
Restore her peace and her centeredness in You. Fill her with Your joy, and flood her with a sense of divine purpose. Use her mightily for Your kingdom, and remind her of the enjoyment and the inspiration she brings to women like me when she puts her talent out there for us.
In Jesus' name, amen.

Amy Wallace said...

Laurel,

Thank you so much for your prayers and for living life real. I enjoy your blog posts and am so encouraged by your posts here! Thank you!

Amy Wallace said...

Heather,

I loved your blog about the church visit and the paid tab. What a nice God kiss.

I miss you! Sure hope we can get together again sometime sooner rather than later.

Thanks for the cyber hugs and your prayers!

Amy Wallace said...

Deena,

You are awesome! Thank you SO MUCH for this prayer.

Thank you, thank you, thank you for the God kiss He gave me through your prayer. What an encouragement!

 
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